梦：愤怒

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Recently, I had several dreams focused on integrative awareness, and I want to share a fragment of one here. In the dream, I clearly felt my subconscious working through the dream to achieve self-integration. I saw a projection of my inner Animus.

In the dream, I once again embarked on a long journey to seek a connection with my Animus.

I haven’t been able to find the feeling of “anger” for many years. This terrifies me—because those things that should have sparked my anger now only fill me with deep sadness. Since then, I have been searching, wanting to know where my “anger” has gone.

I have talked to different people.

I see that some souls repeatedly evade their own fears, They even project this fear onto others, And then disguise the projection as a “reasonable” form of criticism.

They cannot see, look down upon, or understand that what they truly fear is themselves— And they refuse to integrate it.

They are always asking, “Why can’t I find someone who truly understands me?”

These souls are drawn to each other, coming together because of similar wounds, Yet they unconsciously exploit each other’s pain and energy. There, one can only see the unidirectional flow of soul energy.

I don’t want to continue following the black hole of energy.

In the void at the center of the black hole, I saw the black hole itself.

Feeding an embryo that cannot take form.

Where do I guard my spiritual energy boundaries?

This “existence” will never truly materialize

Projection is a black hole.

A shadow cast become a void.

Recoil your energy,

Self-awareness is kept at the door of the heart.

And allow yourself to become again the center of the flow.

Last night, I had a dream about the cycle of life inspired by the word “Zorn” (anger) from the Red Book by C.G. Jung.

Turn your anger against yourself, since only you stop yourself from looking and from living.

C.G. Jung

I dreamt of my connection and entanglement with a man across three reincarnations—

These feelings occurred simultaneously and overlapped in three different universes.

In one reincarnation, he was a murderer, and I was the victim.

In another reincarnation, he was a kind old man,

and I was the young woman sharing wisdom with him.

In the third reincarnation, he was the lover pursuing me.

I walked a long path through a forest near a village called Zorn (German: anger) to reach this man’s home.

On this path, I constantly experienced the overlapping emotions from the three reincarnations:

Fear, growth, and love.

In real life, there is indeed a village called Zorn (anger).

Every time I drive past the village called Zorn,

I see it as a symbol of the gate of anger—

And in my dream, it truly became a door through which I saw the three aspects of life:

Fear, growth, and love.

He is a mirror of my soul’s Animus,

a medium through which I can see different layers of myself.

The dream told me:

When anger is brought into consciousness, it can become a door connecting death, wisdom, and love.